one day

15 Jul

we send out flares

slow at first

then slower

still

but oh how each one

lit up the black

sky just for

us

we put down roots

on different soil

we tear ourselves out

and again we grow

different than before

but every night we

point our flowering

face to the sky

look for

flares

there

louder for the back row

14 Jul

one of the guys

who raped me

had a

pan-fucking-tera

sticker on his

big

texan

truck

i traced those letters

with

my finger

while he crushed

me into a very fine dust

thirty years later

i’m still sharpening

my knife

hoping to

run into

him

news from the ether

9 Jul

you know the way it

starts as if something

terrible is squeezing

your middle

just enough to make you

wonder wickedly what is next

the squeezing leads to

trembling fumbling bumbling

well everything

stuttering too

because why not

things begin to funhouse

grow beyond belief only

to shrink into a polite nagging

then the tsunami shadows over

a gorgeous curl

on the end for

panache

just you

(a cone filled with sloppy soft serve)

and the next

leap

pictured here

8 Jul

when i first noticed

well before even then i

turn to your ghost and said

i can feel my

heartbeat in

my lips

can

you

can you put

your hands on your

throat and sing

golden birds

can you open your eyes

to the hottest

heat

slake your thirst

in endless

truth

can you feel

my heartbeat

in your

lips

ribcage

7 Jul

i opened the

darkness as a gift

as a real honor

to make acquaintance

charmed immediately

i shook out all of that

sleek feathery rage

let my hands touch every

inch of it

rolled around on it

until we were one

perfect scent

bayed into that night

that was swallowed

by weeks

that bowed to months

just as

i forgot my name

from all that running alongside

night until

both knees kissed

the ground

until a heart was

a stone

light whispered

look

up

from the bluebells

5 Jul

i thought i

saw you in

the smoke of

the volcano

it was you shaped

anyway

and you smiled once

from the rim of

the world

before

time

lurched

forward

how to begin

2 Jul

i send out

sentinels

small winged things

made from my own

feathers

and

other dark

feelings

i send them out

with honey in their

gold beaks

sweet and sticky of

the darkest layer

beyond the unremarkable

pale beast

common hearts

do marry

no the dig down

into the marrow

scrape against

something so

nourishing

that even

this girl

sighed

big fish

2 Jul

tie it to a string

let it lift up

until it’s a speck

among other

specks

space dust again

let it find it’s own

path for awhile

until a heart is

just any old heart

again

mind the gap

25 Jun

a field study in

chaos

or the thing

more ancient than

chaos

a place where everything

is sorted in

packages of

dynamite

where caught breath

sours into

acid fog

where tenderness is

a place for hand wringers

and all around me in this

vastness are

all the things i can see

but you

can’t

spill over

24 Jun

from the sidewalk i

prepare to

lift up

find myself

nowhere and everywhere

cease to need

anything

reflect light endlessly

from the sidewalk i

tear open

spill all over

into the cracks where

i grow vines

thorns come next

push out of my flesh

painful as baby teeth

each lush and heady flower

from here

on will know only

liberty